The million dollar question that has yet to be answered:
How did I get here? I wish I knew, but it is likely a combination of a tangled belief system, the continued isolation of our current environment (with a splash of seasonal depression for good measure) and most recently...some broad food restriction in an effort to heal my gut.
After I hit rock bottom two nights ago, I journaled, and with that, thoughts that would concern anybody surfaced. But along with the acknowledgement of them, also came the release.
With this practice 👉I was able to be rational and make some decisions.
In order to overcome the feelings of shame/guilt/overwhelm/confusion, I decided to name all the actionable AND achievable steps am in 100% control of, and could immediately implement to see myself out of that space.
For my mind:
🏔️BELIEVE I will succeed
For my body:
💧Drink 125 oz water
🤸♀️Workout in a way that feels good
🥗Eat 3 meals and 2 snacks
I committed to completing 5/6 of these actions daily for the next 7 days. After that I will reflect (like a scientist) on how things are going. Maybe I’ll recalibrate or maybe I will extend my timeline to a month if it’s going well.
I was in a dark place no doubt. But it wasn’t despair for more than a couple hours. A decade ago it might have been but not today.
What’s different? I have tools now.
Critical point: That doesn’t mean I always reach for the right one and ‘win the day.’ I am human. Even when I know better I don’t always do better.
But what I have learned and continue to acquire in experience, allows me to systematically dismantle the process that is hurting me, and reset.
It doesn’t get easier but I do get better.
Here’s the thing. We all have our shit. Everyone spirals and even though we have different triggers, we can all agree that finding yourself at rock bottom absolutely sucks.
Understanding HOW to determine the next right step is a critical life skill. One I’ll never take for granted.
Tell me, does any of this process sound familiar? To many of you, it will.
If there are ❓, I’ll talk more in stories today! 👇💚